| Goodbye to you, Goodbye to everything that I knew |
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[Friday
[04:15P | 12-15-06]] |
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I have a really really really horrible anger problem.
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[Monday
[04:55P | 04-17-06]] |
I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now.
Maybe...you're going to be the one who saves me. Afterall, you're my wonderwall.
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[Sunday
[08:44P | 03-12-06]] |
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I had a really great weekend. I felt good this whole weekend, and now I'm so ready for school tomorrow. Don't be too shocked that Amber's happy, because I'm getting used to it. I finally hung out with Samo on Friday, and not going to lie, I pretty much love her to death. Saturday I just hung out with Brittany, Kayla, Heather, and Rodney. Yeah...today I went to church, went out to eat with a bunch of my youth group, whom I love very much <3 then I just went over Brittany's house. Heather, Rodney, Kris, and Ashley were over and we pretty much just chilled for the day, and relaxed, played some cards, went grocery shopping, I took Heather's car, which has a mad system, Rodney cleaned my car, shampooed my carpets and everything, pretty much <3 him, and he's gonna help me put in my system in 2 months, I'm really excited. That's about it...have to do some homework now, then off to bed. Nite all. :)
Betcha can't do it like me ;)
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[Thursday
[06:00P | 03-02-06]] |
This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
[CHORUS]
So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know
I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
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[Saturday
[12:10P | 02-25-06]] |
Life's been pretty awesome, not going to lie. I've been hanging out with Banana, Brittany, and Sara a lot lately. Things are goin' so much better here, I'm so much happier, and I'm realizing it. The drive kinda sucks, but its totally worth it. I'm so happy that we don't have school, it's hella nice to have a break. Um, pretty much every aspect of my life is how it's supposed to be...almost, some things I wouldn't mind if they changed, but I'm happy for the most part. I'm just gettin' ready for Vegas this summer, it's going to be a blast.
Have a nice day :) Hehe
It's true love...when you need me like I need you.
...I still do, and I miss you, there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about you, and about how much I love you
Days go by..
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[Saturday
[10:02A | 02-18-06]] |
Believe me...I've been out there. I've been trying. And don't get me wrong, they are all great...and sweet.
But let me tell you, no one even compares...no one comes close.
And I can't fill the hole...
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[Friday
[06:42A | 02-10-06]] |
I won't be online until Tuesday, cuz I'm moving. :)
313-415-7757
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[Monday
[10:58P | 02-06-06]] |
Awww...I can't wait to be in love. I can't wait to be a mommy.
Very random post, but I love babies :)
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[Monday
[07:27P | 01-30-06]] |
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Dont keep it in.
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[Sunday
[07:51P | 01-29-06]] |
Sooo a real update :)
So, friday, I went to the movies with Sara, Tony, Karen, Tj, Amanda, Matt, and ..Fuzzy. lol. It was soo much fun, I did have a good time, even though the end was kinda shaky, I was happy at the reason why it was. :) Then Saturday I woke up at freakin' 5:30, and cleaned at my brother's house till 5, then I had church from 6-10. Then I came home and passed out. Today I spend the whole day at the church, we had our chili cook-off, it was so much fun, Fuzzy showed up after church, and I was surprised cuz of the stuff that happened last night, but then we like, went out with Brittany and Jon and got fooood and stuff. Fun stuff. We like, got a key at the laundry mat. Lmao Brittany. I had so much fun tonight though, both of my parents were there, and they are still alive, thats not something that ever happens, and my brother and his girlfriend came. Sooo exciting.
I honestly can't say that I'm upset about one thing in my life right now, everything is good, and I'm actually smiling a lot lately, I think it's because I have something to smile about. <3 Good reason, right? lol
Oh, and I'm sick of fake friends. That doesn't quite upset me enough to say anything more about it thought. :)
Goodnite.
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[Friday
[06:42P | 01-27-06]] |
I'm not gonna lie
Because I couldn't even deny
That I don't know where to start
When I think about the end
Of this thing we called us
Maybe it was just part
Of a great big lie
That began to send
Both of our hearts
Spinning into dust
Nothing in common
Treat her like dirt
Tell him he's horrible
Just to cure the hurt
When really deep inside we were
both just trying to hide
The need for something more
Something that we new was
In store but we just
COuldn't get past that door
So now we yell, you make me sick
I can believe I chose you as my pick
You made me sad
I made me mad
But all I can think about
Was what we had
All those stupid songs
That describe us so well
Couldn't even begin to tell
You how many nights
I regreted our stupid fights
But now as I sit here
Writing this
I wanna tell you
That I wouldn't have missed
That part in my life
For the world
And even now that I
See it was all just a lie
I think the flame
Has yet to die...
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[Sunday
[02:51P | 01-22-06]] |
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Um...and oh by the way....I"M GOING TO LAS VEGAS WITH MY BABY THIS SUMMER
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[Sunday
[02:43P | 01-22-06]] |
Finals are here. Poop :(. I'm not excited about this, actually. My play for church is on Wednesday~! I'm realy nervous lol. Life is going pretty good, my mom went out of town last nite and Matt, Josh, David, Sara, and Sam-O came over and we watched a movie. Red eye, it was a really good movie. I got a lot of stuff done this morning, that's exciting. All of my reviews are almost done, I just have the Chemistry one to do. I can't wait till this semester is over. I got a new job, and I'm reallllllllly excited about it, it starts at 11 bucks an hour, and it's doing what I want, so I'm pretty excited, to say the least.
I won't pay ;) lol. Bridget and Rachel~
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[Friday
[10:34P | 01-13-06]] |
I'm so effing stressed...
And I need someone....
And...I'm sick of it all
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[Sunday
[09:31P | 01-01-06]] |
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Ugh I'm not in a good mood. And it's not cuz I'm a bitch and it's not cuz I'm always mad. And it's not cuz of something really stupid, and it's not just because I wanna be pissed off. And it's not my fault, and I don't care but I just want to be mad. It's because of so many things, and it's because you just don't understand...*
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[Saturday
[02:40P | 12-31-05]] |
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I don't want to go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody is breaking up
Throwing their love away
I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say (Hey)
Nobody's going to love me better
I'm going to stick with you
Forever
Nobody's going to take me higher
I'm going to stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
I'm going to stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I'm going to stick with you
I don't want to go another
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride
In our privated lives
Ain't nobody getting in between
I want you to know that you're the only one for me
And I say
Nobody's going to love me better
I'm going to stick with you
Forever
Nobody's going to take me higher
I'm going to stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
I'm going to stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I'm going to stick with you
And now
Ain't nothing else I can need
And now
I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me
I got you
We'll be making love endlessly
I'm with you
Baby, you're with me
So don't you worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me
And that's all that counts
So don't you worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me
And that's why I say
Nobody's going to love me better
I'm going to stick with you
Forever
Nobody's going to take me higher
I'm going to stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
I'm going to stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I'm going to stick with you
Nobody's going to love me better
I'm going to stick with you
Forever
Nobody's going to take me higher
I'm going to stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
I'm going to stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I'm going to stick with you
Happy New Years! :)
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[Saturday
[01:42P | 12-31-05]] |
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Worst part it...I'm not surprised.
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[Tuesday
[06:25P | 12-27-05]] |
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Yeah, I'm pretty much soaking up Christmas Break....slept till like 2 today, on and off, Sam stayed the nite. I had a really good christmas, I got to see my family, I've missed them a lot, Luke is gettin so big. I got a bunch of cool stuff for Christmas...umm pjs, money, gift card for a pedicure, thank God, body butter, yum lol ;), lotion, a kick ass game, its very fun, and socks! Yay lol. And i got a travel toothbrush lmao from my best friend Sam cuz she knows...oh she knows lol. Well yeah, I'm not gonna write a long entry. OH, Jd is the sweetest guy ever <3 He got me a scarf....this is a really long list btw, he got me a scarf, body lotion, body wash, bubble bath, a candle, body spray, and a loooooofah, which I absolutely am in love with, and he got me a bracelet <3 it's really really pretty, I really like it, then he got me a ring. That's about all I have to say about that one, he got me a ring. Just cuz every chic knows the whole explanation on that one, I love it, its pretty, and it totally just makes me so happy that I'm so in love with him. Like everytime I look at it, I'm like aw I'm taken <3 lol Ok I'm done rambling because I have the best boyfriend ever and you should be jealous. *cough* I'm done. Anywayz, yeah, oh I'm in a play at church, exciting, you should all come see it lol Uh okie dokie, so Merry Late Christmas everyone, thanks for being such awesome friends :-p
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[Wednesday
[09:34P | 11-30-05]] |
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Santana. *I'm feeling you* |
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So I think I'm just a very emotional person. I think maybe I'm a little high mantience, not that I need nice things, or a lot of time, or a lot of work, I just think I need an equal amount of care, and thought spent on me as I do on other people. I think I just need someone who knows how to handle my heart...and with delicacy and love. I think little things upset me, a lot, on the inside, because I know a lot of thought isn't put into stuff, and I think the big obvious things, don't hurt as much to me, because they don't need a lot of thought put into them. The same everyday things, are nice, but just aren't very convincing.
I think I don't feel good. I think I'm really stressed out, I've been really sick lately, and this one lady just keeps screwing me over reguarding something and that's very stressful. My relationships with people in my life are gettin hard, even my friends, because things are changing. I'm changing.
I'm not saying that I'm mad about anything, or disappointed. I'm just confused and a little hurt. Not because of any one person or any one thing. So, I'm not mad or upset, at anyone. I just don't feel good, I guess.
I talked with Scott tonight, it made me think about somethings and realize somethings. Some are good and some are bad and some are just a little confusing. But it was really good talking with him, I miss him a lot.
I went to dinner with Kelli, I miss her too, we don't really spend a lot of time together anymore. I love her. <3
Winter concert is on the 7th, I'm actually really excited, I don't know why. Maybe it's because I actually really love the songs that we are doing.
I love Christmas and I absolutely canNOT wait. I love giving presents and looking at lights and singing Christmas carols and being with the people I love. <3 That all sounds so cliche but it's all so true, and I love it.
Amanda took some really cool pictures at World Pulse Festival and showed them to me today, I stole like the double of almost every one haha lol.
My phone has been on roam all nite and I do not know why.
This entry started out with some meaning, but now its just gettin really random.
Omgosh wow I love new song by Santana. I've listened to it probably 20 times tonight. It's so true though, it makes you feel so good because you hear the words and you're like wow, I love this person so much and makes you happy. But it also makes you feel kinda sad...when you think, yeah, I have faced so many emotional days, it's good that I have in some ways, because I look back and shake my head because I know they turned out fine, but now, they just hurt, deep down, but I'm not going to let it get to me, because letting my feelings out in the little ways, over the little things, which are huge to me, makes big problems.
I'm gonna go to bed. I'm really tired. Goodnite :)
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[Saturday
[10:23A | 11-26-05]] |
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Hey. Hi, from Sam-o. Thanksgiving was okay, I don't really my family too much, but it was okay, I watched holes. Then I went to Amy's real quick, and then to Amanda's for a while, then eventually went home. Then my daddy called me and told me he got my Chistmas present! And I get it today. Yay! Then Friday I went shopping all day for someone, then I went with Matt shopping for someone, then I went shopping more for someone, then I went to Applebee's with Sam and Jordan and Troy and Jeremy and Don. Fun times. Then we went to Media Play..cuz I had to look at thingsssss.. We got in a really funny conversation on the way there, and me and Sam were cracking up and the boys were just like OMG cuz they didnt know what we were talkin about and it was funnyyy. Last time I used it was halloween! *gasp* I really miss Jd, I can't wait till he comes home, I miss him like crazy :(. I love him so much <3 He's the bestestesttt. And stuff. Then we took people home and me and Sam came home and ....talked online and then slept...well actually first we went outside in the freaking cold snow and got some person's stuff outta my car at like 1 in the morning. Yeah..and now we're writing in my lj, then shes gonna go home and I'm gonna clean! Yes. Okay so bye..
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